A Little Thing About Fall in September

Photo taken at : Onrust Island, Thousand Islands, Indonesia

Being in September surrounded in Fall atmosphere actually reminds me of one thing : Fall Semester Two Years Ago. I remember that the students's orientation sucked a lot I didn't even want to come the following days after the first one.

I remember that I was so excited on the first day of college. My personal inspirations have always been and will always be Elle Woods and Josie Duffy--two Harvard Law School Alumnus, even though one of them is only a fictional character--who are incredibly smart, beautiful and most importantly, persistent on doing things they're passionate about. Looking at them, watching their stories made my heart skipped a beat and prayed hopefully that I can be someone like them one day.

I remember that I befriended with these two beautiful friends, whom I could share about my thoughts with, whom I could share about my insecurities with, and who had taught me well about a lot of important essential things.

I remember that I had this extremely strict English lecturer who always gave us a bunch of assignments, magically never got sick even for a single meeting, and made us almost die passing her class.

I remember that I cried telling my mom I wasn't sure I could survive in Law School and proposed the idea that it might be better if I just moved to Literature major--which my grandfather then told me to stay because Law School is actually the good choice for me. I wasn't sure about that but I intended to give it a try and God gave me the best present, I got the highest GPA in that first semester.

I remember that I kept telling myself the reason why I chose Law School in the first place so I wouldn't give up. That I wanted to take International Law as my specialization so I could work for UNICEF, teaching young children in Africa later in the future.

But, skip, skip, skip to Fall Semester two years later, which is right now, things have quite changed. I don't get the highest GPA anymore (which is actually very sad and depressing, hiks).

I choose International Law as my specialization, yeah, but in the first meeting of International and Regional Organization's class, I nearly wanted to ask my counselor if it's possible to change my specialization for the next semester. Goddammit, the stakes were too high! (or not. Perhaps it's just only me who's afraid of everything and anything)

I just think that things've changed. I've changed. Maybe for the better, maybe for the worst, I don't know which one for sure. By reading some books and watching some movies, I realize I just want to be normal. You may think I'm boring. That being normal is boring. But, I don't care, anyway. I can feel myself literally wanting to be one of those successful young women who lives on her own, who's always strong enough to make any decisions for herself, who travels a lot, reads a lot, writes a lot (and shops a lot too lol), who finally meets someone amazing that can be an amazing discussion partner whom she talks about trashes to serious philosophical subjects with, who finally moves in with him for about a couple of years and end up marrying him a couple of years later, and who will be a wise and intelligent mother to teach her child about karma, The Higher Spirit, heaven, gender equality, LGBT, sex, world hunger, love, and world peace. That may sound naive. That may sound cliche. But, I don't care, anyway. Maybe my dreams have just changed. Maybe I have just changed. Maybe my life's changed. I don't care, anyway.

See you in the Fall two years later.

Dare to change. Dare to dream. Dare to see the goodness in the darkness. Dare to be a bit gloomy, to finally be bright at the end. Happy Fall! September 9th, 2016 12.03 pm Annisa Erou

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